Whom do I love the most? I have
asked myself this question several times in my life & at different times. I
am sure that at every point in time, we feel we love someone or the other more
than rest of the crowd in this whole world. Is he or she the one we love the
most at that point? But how much do we love that person?
Whenever I think of most loved
ones, there are definitely a definite set of people who flash through my mind.
I always think of my family and my friends when I think of who do I love the
most. It is always my parents I think of 1st whenever I think of loving people.
So by default it would be my parents that I love the most I always thought
unless this thought pitched my mind. If I love them the most & unconditionally
then why does it hurt me when they scold me or try to correct me whenever they
think I am wrong. Why don't I accept whatever they say blindly? What is it that
makes me hurt? Then I thought it must be that kids don't love their parents as
much as parents love their kids. But here again, if that is true, why do
parents get hurt with what their children say to parents while they are in
anger. If we love our kids unconditionally, then what ever they have to say about
us should not hurt. But it does hurt when ever anything specifically is
mentioned about their negative character even if their own kids are saying it.
Spouses are not even to be
considered as everyone knows with whom do we fight the most :). Whether we like
it or not and accept it or not, most of the times we vent out all our
frustrations with our life partner for we have taken that person for granted.
But the question still remains.
Whom do we love the most? Answer undoubtedly is that we love ourselves the
most. There are 2 things about us. There is something called Ego & then
there is self-esteem. In most of the cases, rather in all of the cases, when we
love the other person we are ready to give up our ego. Though the ego pops up
now and then which leads to fight, we compromise with our loved ones when we
see that the ego is doing no good to the relationship. But if the self esteem
is hurt, we will not be able to handle it. What is the big deal about this self
esteem I have questioned myself? As the word itself has it, it is to do with
self. Whenever this 'self' esteem is hurt, we are hurt. This self esteem is
nothing but the ME factor. I love myself more than anyone else on this earth.
So when someone hurts my self esteem that's when I break. This 'self' esteem is
more than anyone else or anything else on this earth.
Is it only with me that I love
myself more than anyone else on this earth, I am not sure. But what I know for
sure is that I am one amongst those who love themselves more than anyone else.
Are you with me?
