Challenges of a working Mother

I had heard lot of women saying it is very tough to manage both work, home & children. Time has now given me a chance to handle it.

Today my baby turns 8 and 1/2 months. She understands a lot of things now. Morning as soon as I get ready she gets upset & starts crying. She understands that I am about to leave her back at home. Rest of her day goes in crying mostly as I hear it from my mother.

That way I am very lucky. I have my parents to support me & to take care of my kid. But still the very thought of having put my small baby under stress kills me. Looking baby cry most of the time, my parents get worked up too. I am also putting them under stress.

Being in Bangalore, lot of time goes in travelling. Close to 3 hours will be spent on road just travelling to office. Some days this travelling itself is so stressful that by the time I reach office, I get drained out...

One of my friend rightly asked...Are you doing all this ONLY for money. Well, the honest answer is NO. I always aspired to be some one recognisable in the society. I aspired for a good career. But slowly I am realising my career is taking a back priority & personal life is gaining un explainable importance. I know it is me who has to guide my daugther through lot of stuff in life. If more than 12 hours go in office/travel etc & 8 hours for sleep, I just have 4 hours to spend with my daugther. Ahewwwwwwww.....that's misserable.

Added to all this, if there are calls in the evening after reaching home, it will make life more misserable. Yeah, Kudos, recognition mails, awards etc for all the good work at office, does put a smile on my face. But it is short lived. Smile vacats my face, as soon as I remember my little one back at home, waiting for me. Eagerness with which she waits outside with my mom to receive me in the evening after 6.30 is something unexplainable.

In short, I have realised that working mother should be emotionally very strong, which I am failing misserably on...