Our Own Noise

One of the sleepless nights, I started thinking, what are the reasons people would get disturbed sleep? One of the things that I felt amongst lots of others in the list is the sound of Mosquitoes. When you have disturbed sleep, everything is disturbing… Most irritating thing I guess is the sound from Mosquitoes…

Can mosquitoes hear? Would they like the sound that they produce when they fly? If the mosquitoes were able to hear the noise they generate would they still generate the noise that they generate? I have my own doubts about this.

On similar lines, when we analyze, would we like to hear the noise we create? Not really… If we happen to listen to the noise we create, I am sure we would not like it. We all as human beings create & produce noise day in & day out & for everything possible. Others will be able to see the noise, but we will not be able to hear our own. Likewise, we will be able to see all the noise others create & get irritated about it, but we don’t listen to ourselves.

When we do the self analysis, we will realize that the noises we produce most of the times are unnecessary. Probably situations which triggered noise is just a trigger to the noise we were ought to create.

There are lots of things we like about ourselves. In this entire world, we love ourselves 1^st & then others. That’s the reason even when our most loved ones try to touch our ego, we will not like it. Reason is we like ourselves more than anyone else… There is always a ME factor more than WE factor. No doubt, we should like & love ourselves, but if there was another ME, exact another ME, would I like that other ME? Definitely not… I will probably start seeing the –ves also of ME in that other person. Like there are lots of things I love about myself, there is infinite number of things that I don’t like about myself. I will not be able to see it myself when there is only 1 me. But if there is another ME, I will definitely start seeing the –ves also of me in that other person. That’s just being so human. Everyone tends to think I am right all the time & the other person is wrong most of the times when there are clashes. This is what causes noise.

As the most common saying goes, put yourself in my shoes & think, will we be able to put ourselves in others shoes truly. Will the shoe size truly fit? No, definitely not a perfect fit. There is always a size difference in the shoe I wear & others wear. So we will truly never be able to fit ourselves in others shoes & understand what the other person thinks or is going through. I guess not… no matter how much we try to fit ourselves in other shoes & wear the thinking hat of the other person there is always a mismatch in the size, which truly means that definitely, we cannot wear other’s thinking hat nor can we put ourselves in others shoes.

All of us get close to a person who listens to us. In my own personal experience, I have always liked people who just do the listening for me. If I had to listen to myself carefully would I need someone else who could listen to me externally? If I start listening to myself, would I tell only those things to myself which I would choose to tell others when I talk to them??

Of all the sayings from Osho, I loved this one the best “If you are not capable of being alone, your relationship is false. It is just a trick to avoid your loneliness, nothing else". I am not saying we need to be alone. But I am saying, the day we can listen to our own inner sense, then I would be capable of being alone, for I have a very good listener with me all the time. I have the capacity to correct the noises I create… more than anything else I can read myself.

I am trying to listen to myself. But it is not my mistake that there is a frequency mismatch. The noises I create are always below 20Hz or above 20 kHz. When the frequency of the noise I create falls within this range, I will start listening to myself J & not produce the noise that I produce all the time J.